At 2017, after reading lots of books about manifestation, and having a long talk with Kachina (my spiritual teacher), I started playing with the law of attraction and listening to my inner voice to become a happy person and attract only the things that make me happy and have fun in life.
Neither manifestation nor listening to my inner voice was an easy process for me, but all take a try. So at the end of 2017, I manifested that I want to travel to nice places and meet new people without spending lots of money. The answer came so quickly in a way that shocked me when I met people traveling as volunteers, working 4-5 hours daily and not paying for the stay or food.
I decided to give it a try! My first trip as a volunteer was to Tasmania, I don’t know why I choose Tasmania, maybe since the travel will be at April and the weather will be nice there, also I love nature very much.
It was scary for me even to think to travel since I have no idea from where to get the money for the flight or the pocket money! But I asked the universe: I want to travel during the school holidays to Tasmania, and don’t know how, but I want to travel and I want to have fun.
I don’t know how everything falls in place by itself, even I got the intuition (my inner voice) not to plan for any trips in Tasmania till I arrive there, and only to plan one day ahead. It takes only trust and letting go to really get it all; a leap of faith that I am between the hands of the universe which will take very good care of me and give me an amazing trip.
The trip was beyond my expectation; it was one of the most amazing travels that I did in my life. I met amazing people, who are very happy, or at least becoming happy is one of their missions and aims in life. I met people who want me to be happy by planning trips to me and offering lefts or company! I was amused by the result.
Life is amazing, it is our responsibility to make ourselves happy, no one ever can manifest your reality but you. So make it happen.
It all started about ten years back when I start asking myself: am I really happy !! what I want in my life? Why i feel that today is similar to yesterday, similar to tomorrow! I lost the taste of life.
Sometimes when I wake up in the morning of a weekend day I ask myself: why to get out of bed? what for ? is there anything special to do today, other than sleeping?
Then all of a sudden I had the light of hope; I get to know about "The Secret" book. the book was like a shook for me !! the idea was totally new to me, but was astonishing and amazing!! and since the idea is so easy, then yes I can do it !!
Since then I bought so many books about the same subject. For my surprise, the subject in now new at all. Hundreds of book had been written in the same topic! So why not all people on earth are happy, rich, with the perfect partner !! it is because the technique is not working or because not so many people know about it.
I gave it a go, and it didn't work, why? because of many reasons:
1- I didn't find that switch on me to switch negative thought to positive ones!!
2- I didn't believe in quitting my job, and looking for my dream job will work for me !! the period of waiting for that amazing job to come will kill me with bad thoughts about not being able to support at least myself, what if I didn't find my dream job!!
3- Figuring out what I really want in life was quite challenging for me !! I don't know what that dream job will look like, or that dream house.
Today after 10 years of trial and errors, and asking people (whom I consider good manifesting), I somehow figured out the recipe for manifestation.
So if you are like me, and want to know about that recipe, keep reading the posts in this blog. I am not promising you anything other than being happy, and on track again, Isn't it amazing!
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After I had fully understanding of the low of attraction, or the manifestation process I decided to live an exciting life, no matter what is in it. A life that will be about me, nobody else or nothing else. What I mean by that is I decided to be happy, this will be my very first propriety in life, I decided to live a life that is full of fun, joy, laughter, peace ..... A life that the other people and things in my life (including my kids, partner, relatives, friends, money, job . . . ) are spinning around me, not I am the one who spins around them. Which mean if they exist or not I will be happy.
One of the things I decided to do is to be back to writing (blogging), and be back to horse riding lessons. Today (20/9/2017) was the first horse riding lesson after about 3 years off, and two days back was the first day being back to blogging after about 5 years off!!!
The horse riding lesson was more than wonderful, I don't know why, is it because of me (the decision that I made to be happy) or because of the lady who gave me the course or about the horse. regardless, it was an amazing experience. I told the lady that it was the most amazing horse riding lesson I even have, and I thanked the horse for that amazing ride, and for sure I will continue my journey in horse riding.
in my way back home and when I reached the river near my home I had that feeling that I should stop and have a walk -since I am really full of energy- . I said : why not, nothing really more important than having one more half an hour of fun! After walking by the river again I had that feeling that I should take my shoes off, walk to the river and sit there for a while. But then every couple of minutes I will tell myself it is time to be back home ! and myself replies: not yet!! I forced myself to sit there for about half an hour, not because I am not enjoying it but because I discover that I am I person who had forgotten how to live in the moment!
While sitting beside the river the thoughts of going home and do this or do that kept on jumping to mine head, till I said to myself: look you are sitting here and enjoying for half an hour, and I will do the same at least once a week.
Now here is my notes about what is happening and what happened in my life (and maybe yours):
-We are living our lives torn between the past and the future, and we forget to live in the moment! We keep thinking of the past which its jerks and dumps, we recall every bad moment and person who hurt us, and we start sending them our curse. In fact, we are sending them our energy, no wonder why we feel crap after that.
If we are not thinking of the past, here comes the future, when I will prepare the lunch, what should I cook, the fees that I should pay for that, rents, monies, where I will be after 20 years. Basically sending our energy to the future that we don't know anything about it yet.
But the most important thing is we forgot to live in the current moment, enjoying what it is, filling ourselves with amazing position energy.
- We prison ourselves either at home or work ... and we forgot to do what we love and what we make us happy, in a way that if we are back to doing it we may not feel that connection again !! Why I was away from blogging, horse riding, and nature !! Is it because I had more important to do in life, or because I thought there were things that if I have I be happy (apparently one of these things is busy making money, and trying to please people who never been pleased). I am exactly like that bird in the cage which I feel pity for him because his freedom was taken from him, while I am playing the same role but I prison myself and I took away my freedom.
- Sometimes it takes training for us to enjoy things or to re-enjoy them, this exactly what happened to me when I sit by the river and force myself to sit for half an hour. It is discipline more than torturing. This reminded me when I start meditating, I forced myself to sit for 5 minutes daily, till I start loving it. and this exactly what I will do if I want to try something new that other people enjoy: give it a try to at least ten hours, then either I will love it or just realize that it is not mine. The gain from that is: I didn't miss one thing that I may find that my heart in it.
With my new life, I decided to try every new thing that may bring more joy in my life. I decided to live in the moment, to keep filling me with very positive energy that will help me and help the people whom I love and care of.
